ok its first thing in the morning and i should be at work soon but i thought i would stop off and write a little bit about the dreams i have been having recently. Dreams always fancinate me for the reason that if vivid enough gets me thinking “what do they mean?” and “how does this relate to my life right now?”

Now since this is on mymind and ive been talking to people on Twitter about this, this morning. One reason why the whole dream interpretation came up was because in the “Creative Utopia” book i have been reading it discusses the theories of Karl Jung of how you gain meaning from things appearing in your dream by working out how the objects, animals, people etc realate to you.

So the first dream i had on Sunday night was about me fighting with a spider…not you jackie chan style moves, I was actually trying to trap it under a glass (im not scared of spiders but i hate the idea of them being on me so i always use ths method to get rid of them in real life). But when i did trap the pesky critter under the glass it would be strong enough to push me and the glass away.

I eventually came to some form of peace with the spider and was then helping to add wings to it, so it started to look like a butterfly except the wings looked more like leaves and it put them on wonkey lol!!

the dream i had last night was about me being on a school trip of some kind, i had just done some kind of sports activity and was trying to get changed back into my regular clothes as i hate wearing trackies out and about. so being almost topless by this point, a counseller i used to work with, popped her head round the curtain and told me she needs to use the space for an appointment (well actually the woman was a blur of both the counsellor, i used to work with and the one i do now, and i mean counsellor at the college not my own personal one before ideas start going) so still trying to sort myself out in a bit of a rush and a child opens the curtain to give me a pink cupcake, which at the same time i can see across the room that a friend of mine was also recieving a gift (much better than mine i might add lol). I just remember gazing at the cupcake thinking how kind it was i got this but i cant eat it (allergic to Wheat you see). There was also a man in it who i kept seeing who is a friend of mine, dont know why he was always there but he was just watching me

so work that out Mr Jung!!! better get to work, but before i go i thought i would add these lyrics from a song ive been listening to which i think sum me up a great deal

“The Way I Am” by Staind

I’m not very good at just paying attention
I’m not very good at remembering things that you say
I’m not very good at persuing redemption
I’m not very good at concealing the hand that I play

[chorus]
It’s the way I am, you’ll never change
The way I am, or re arrange
The way I am, just let me be
The way I am, it’s the way I am

What I am Reading: “Creative Utopia: 12 ways to realize total creativity” by Theo Stephan Williams

What I am Listening to: “The way I am”, “Tangled up in you” and “Believe” by Staind